It’s usually the little things that knock my feet out from under me and leave me wondering why the world is spinning out of control again. Idle comments from people around me (however random or near to me), or worse yet are the things that are unsaid. These things can be the worst kind of undoing because I can’t ever truly read the mind of another, so I make some absurd assumption and I’m left feeling a void. My own silly fault.
Yet, it’s also the little things that straighten the world out and put me back upright. Purposeful comments from the people around me, and little actions that help me see the good in the world.
I was very discouraged and my courage to face the world and strength to remain dedicated was fading. But through the encouraging words of my friends and family, I am looking ahead to what’s in store for me and the boys. I bounced out of bed today and worked hard on the kitchen, and I am looking forward to organizing the house this weekend. I’m realizing that I can still do this, and I’m realizing that I don’t always need the things or people I think I do.
I am thanking God for all that He has provided and as I muster the strength to face my first Christmas without my kids, I have this overwhelming feeling that I’ll really be okay. Monday can’t come soon enough, I am already missing my little guys! 🙂